Post-baby brain

When I was pregnant with Lucy I can remember (frequently) not being able to recall something. Often my absence of thought would be followed by laughter and some other seasoned Mom saying something like, "Get used to it," with a chuckle in their voice. I knew that "memory loss" was a part of pregnancy, but it really hasn't seemed to go away. It is so frustrating!

I used to learn all my students' names on the first night of class, since having children-I can still draw a blank on a name at any moment. I used to wonder why people made lists for the grocery store-now I would not survive without one. Just the other night I went to buy three things at the store and I had to call Marc because I couldn't remember what the third thing was! I have been known to leave the burner on the stove on well after dinner is over. I space appointments and even fun outings with friends. In meetings, if I don't write down exactly what I am supposed to do later-it will never happen. These are all things I used to be very good at.

This all came to a pinnacle last week when I showed up for a Primary Program I was supposed to watch as a representative from the stake. The meeting began and there was no program scheduled for that day! I asked the Primary President what was going on and she said that it had been changed to two weeks later. I walked home almost in tears wondering if I would ever have control of my life again. In this case, it turned out that they had rescheduled it without letting us know so it wasn't my brain's fault after all. At any rate, it is still very symbolic of how things seem to be going these days.

My husband (who also happens to be a Dr. of the brain) informs me that it probably has a lot more to do with how much more I have to juggle now then actual brain loss. Either way, I had no idea when everyone told me what a sacrifice I would be making to be a mother that it meant a big piece of my brain would no longer work.